Two Weeks Old

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Holding Kate

Katharine Amelia

Boris and I welcomed our daughter Kate into the world on May 08, 2012 at 9:34 AM, weighing 6 pounds, 13 ounces, measuring 19 inches long.  We’ve spent the last few days soaking in her sweetness and enjoying our time as a family of four.  We’re falling more and more in love with her each day and feel so blessed to have her in our lives.  

On the Brink of Change

It’s 3:00 AM and I’m wide awake.  All that separates us from change is one day.  Our last day as a family of three.  Today, I am a mother of one.  Tomorrow a new chapter begins.  That in itself is met with mixed emotions, sadness, anticipation, excitement.  There is something special, something simple about having only one child and I have tried to cherish that over the past few months.  I have thought about this day a lot and what it will be like, knowing, that it is our last day together, Ben and I, before life changes once again.  Today I am going to abandon my daily tasks and get down on the floor (if I physically can) and watch Ben play, soak him up, breath him in, let him eat doughnuts and chocolate milk for lunch.  I’m going to enjoy him, appreciate him, spoil him and marvel at how far he’s come.  

I know technically, I’m already a mother of two but this baby is still invisible in many ways to me.  I've been her mother since cells began to divide back in August but she is still within, a little mystery tucked away.  I can feel her and my stomach has grown to the size of a large watermelon but until I see her, hold her, touch her, she is still somewhat out of reach.  When I think about this baby, about finally meeting this little being, I am ready.  I am ready to fall in love, intensely, fiercely, instantly.  When I think about how much love I felt for Ben the moment he was born, it’s almost too much to handle.  I can’t wait to feel that again for this baby.  I can’t wait to lay eyes on her for the first time.  I can’t wait to find out for certain that she is a girl.  I can’t wait to hold her with Boris at my side and pick out which features are his and which are mine.  I can’t wait to watch as this new personality unfolds into our lives.  Today this baby is still unknown, a little stranger moving around inside me.  Tomorrow she’ll be real.  And I can’t wait...